Lables or Love?

Life is like a runway. You have to put different outfits on everyday and strut the catwalk like you own the world inorder to be noticed. I love lables. I love fashion and feeling like a million dollars no matter where i go. And my handbags along with most of my clothes are expensive. I grew up wanting expensive things and I never want to give that up. I never want to settle thinking I cant get exactly what I want. I may not get it in the near future however I will get it one way or another. My dad has always taught me this. You want something bad enough, then dont stop til it's yours.
There are different people in my life who believe differently. I see how they look at life and know what things are important to them. I respect that and hope they respect how I see things through my eyes. With beautiful stars in my eyes, I will always use them to drive my determination and have the life I always used to dream about when I was a little girl.
The song by fergie called Lables or Love is kinda how I used to feel. I replaced people with shopping and spent most of my time and money at the mall. I have changed that in the past couple years and plan on working out my human relations and not my debit card. I have cut back and feel confident knowing I have friends and loved ones in my life. They truly helped me realize whats also important however I still feel like fashion is top on my list.
Glamour is fashion's best friend and my lover. I love feeling glamorous and perky. Happiness goes hand in hand with that feeling and I definitely feel it almost everyday. I just recently broke one of my biggest habits. I no longer bite on or tear my nails off everytime I get bored or nervous. They are so long and beautiful now and everyone is always asking me for a back scratch. lol :) My legs need a lot more work since I still have scars on them from my junior year of high school. Thank goodness there are ways to get rid of those. I am growing my hair out and if anyone suggests that I should cut my hair I will cry. Did it once for me and one other person and I will never go through that again. I have also started to use a little more makeup like eyeliners and different color shadows that look very nice.

Update to date

Today is Sunday. The beginning of the week, Or more like the beginning of my life as it has changed from yesterday.
Johnny and I haven't been getting along as best as we could be so we split. Not like the banana dessert or the kind where you get up and walk away from the last eighteen months you just spent with that person.
This kind of a split is the one that leaves you wondering why. Why did we have those arguments? Why didn't we care or take the time to understand? I just can't get up and walk away from the one who made me happy and laugh. Or the guy who I've been with the longest. That sort of thing stays with you. especially since he's the only one I've been engaged to.
What's life like now? Should I focus on only myself? Something I haven't done in a while. Every little thing I do reminds me of him. So do I try to do different things? What is the cure? Is there a cure? All that Johnny once promised is now gone. erased and will start again from the very beginning. But what about me? I want to pass Go and collect my $200.00 so I can gain what I need! I need a car, stronger ties to my friends, special bond with my family, go back to school, make enough to get out on my own, and I need to stay happy and calm through all that!!!!! Is that even possible????? Well, we shall find out soon enough.
Never loose your sense of wonder and always keep your doors open. Help others and in return you may find yourself receiving help. Faith is to believe in that which we cannot see. Touch with not only your hands but your mind and heart. Smell all the surprises waiting around the corner so you won't be taken off guard. Wish selflessly. Hope in all charitable things. Taste the rainbow. lol I love that one. And most of all, Always keep your heart open. If you do that, love will always find it's way in.